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A Re:Zero Theory Follow-up: Regulus Corneas’s and Petelgeuse Romanee-Conti’s traumas led to them creating situations that would re-traumatize them, which backs up my read on Subaru’s Authorities likely being shaped by the biggest regret of each of those in the dark world

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As I stated in my main write-up for Ep. 79, Subaru’s Authorities are shaped by the biggest regret of each of those who reside in the dark world (Relevant scenes of the dark world being when Subaru remembered being in the dark world with his heart caressed by Satella in Ep. 8 after Puck used Shamak on him, when Satella whispered, “Aishiteru” to Subaru during the White Whale fight in Ep. 20, and when Subaru saw both Petelgeuse and Regulus before seeing Satella in Ep. 70) with Regulus’s biggest regret being that his first wife smiled in her final moments, showing her unhappiness with being his wife, and therefore, he desired to be able to share how he felt about her with her ’cause she never knew that he genuinely cared for her even though he slaughtered her family and the village the two lived in, and since communication is a two-way street, and Regulus wouldn’t have known to think to tell his first wife about his love for her had he not known about his first wife’s dissatisfaction with him, Subaru’s power likely manifested in being able to take what others feel inside their heart and feel it for himself, which is how he felt the warmth of Rem’s love she imparted to him to stop him from spiraling, in addition to sharing what he feels with others (unconfirmed for now). All of this was due to Regulus deep down desiring human connection, which he ultimately failed to do with his wife.

This is not to say that Regulus is meant to be seen as a sympathetic character as he was a horrible guy who did many wretched things, but as can be seen by his rambling to himself in Season 3, the guy had serious trauma over his wife smiling in her final moments even though no matter what he’d done before that, she’d refused to smile, showing that her not smiling was not for a lack of trying on his part. That trauma’s why he forced his future wives to agree to never smile or face death ’cause his first wife actually meant something to him. I believe Regulus was coping in saying that he never needed for them to smile ’cause many people who have trauma create incidents that will re-traumatize them, meaning if Regulus lived long enough, he’d have another wife who smiled in her final moments.

There’s literally empirical evidence of trauma survivors creating incidents that re-traumatize them. Drawing on that knowledge, this is why Kana from Oshi no Ko is obsessed with Aqua, ’cause when he shined a light on her during the Sweet Today adaption arc, she replaced her mother, who used to be the one who validated her talent and feelings of competence, with Aqua, since he stepped into that role for her even though Aqua’s very emotionally distant to the point that her fixation with him led to a proximation of emotional abuse (not actual emotional abuse) when he started ghosting her. And also relevant is that Aqua’s mother, Hoshino Ai, the person he most wanted to support, was a popular idol who died, and he was subconsciously drawn to making this similar situation by having Kana, the one he most wanted to support, join her sister’s idol group, and when someone pointed out that connection, he was distressed about potentially reliving that and his own role in potentially re-traumatizing himself.

This is backed by Regulus stating Subaru violated his rights as an unselfish man who desires nothing but to settle for a tiny bit of simple, ordinary happiness, which shows Regulus most likely just wanted a wife who loved him even though he killed everyone his first wife knew, which is why she never showed emotion and wouldn’t smile no matter what he did with him coping by telling himself he never needed them to to since it makes their faces uglier after she died. He realized he was the reason she was unhappy, and he ragequit life after that and never decided to be a proper man due to subconsciously realizing how he fucked up, and his coping mechanism for this trauma is blaming everyone else for his issues and never take accountability for his first wife’s unhappiness to help him cope with his failure even if that appears to be an oxymoron ’cause the reality is, accepting that he did his first wife bad would mean that he was such a disaster who made the only person he held dear live a life of despair, and accepting that might’ve resulted in him deactivating his Authority and considering suicide, meaning his coping mechanism’s the only thing that kept him alive up until the end of Season 3.

Some people with deep psychological wounds/traumas are known to recall traumatizing things in their final moments, and this would explain why Regulus was haunted by his wives smiling at him when Reinhard sent him up into the sky and then remembered young Emilia and how she’d been protected by Fortuna and Regulus ’cause at the time seeing Fortuna and Petelgeuse, a real example of both romantic and familial love, reminded him of his own failure as a husband, which is why Regulus attacked Pandora when she told him to calm his anger ’cause just the thought of Fortuna and Petelguse incensed him by reminding him of how inadequate he is as a person.

As for Petelgeuse, his deeply regretting killing Fortuna is probably why Subaru gets recoil from using Invisible Providence offensively since that act hurt him so much and drove him insane after whatever Pandora told him to help him cope with what he did, and we know it did given Petelgeuse was talking about how Subaru killed Rem in Arc 3 with his own hands with tears in his eyes, showing that the moment in which Petelgeuse killed Fortuna with his Unseen Hand hurt him to his core. This would be why Subaru wasn’t hurt when he merely entered Invisible Providence into Emilia’s body but was pained when he crushed Regulus’s heart and why he wasn’t pained when he rubbed Joseph’s neck with Invisible Providence.

Even Petelgeuse killing Rem in the brutal fashion he did was likely ’cause he deep down remembered how he killed Fortuna and was driven, without intentionally doing so, to make that connection ’cause trauma survivors tend to put themselves in situations that re-traumatize them, which is why he was crying in that scene as he realized what he had did to Fortuna.

Anyway, I’ll leave it at that. I had neglected to delve into this completely for my main write-up, so I felt I needed to do this.

In defense of Akane in Oshi no Ko, who isn’t a perfect waifu, and why that’s a good thing

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I’ve seen a lot of people call Akane a perfect waifu, and I don’t agree with this sentiment. A perfect waifu wouldn’t tell Aqua in Episode 29 that he needs to make his own decision on how he wants to live and that she’ll support whatever his decision is after he has made it. I get the sense that Akane has taken her psychological profiling that she uses to portray the characters she plays when acting too seriously and has read up too much on psychology to her detriment. Although that’s how she was able to step into Ai’s shoes so well for the Dating Reality Show arc and get Aqua curious about her, not everything can be understood just from reading about psychology.

While Akane is right that when one half of the couple leans too heavily upon the other to make decisions it can be a toxic dynamic/relationship, she clearly has no previous relationship experience before dating Aqua, and it shows. She should know that Aqua was doing better mentally when he wasn’t bothered with revenge, but she merely stated this season that she prefers that version of Aqua rather than fully realizing that Aqua was legitimately in a better headspace after giving up on revenge rather than it being a matter of opinion. She should’ve outright told him to continue letting go of what haunted him as it’s not wrong to encourage your partner to do what’s best for his mental health, and the one time Aqua needed Akane’s emotional support more than ever he didn’t get it.

Akane is clearly a kind girl who doesn’t mean any harm, but I see her naivety being horrible for Aqua. She has made it her goal to kill Hikaru in place of Aqua to keep him out of it, but she perhaps let out a freudian slip about that in Episode 29 when she mused about carrying his burdens with him, hinting to Aqua that she knew all along that his father still lived, and Aqua, with him being the intelligent guy he is, most likely caught onto the possible implications of that, making her attempt to safeguard him a failure, not to mention the potential damage to their relationship.

She just wants to be a supporting girlfriend, but she doesn’t know what’s the best approach of doing that. I’m thinking Akane may not have had a great childhood herself with something clearly missing as her idea of what a girlfriend/loving partner should do is somewhat amiss and moreso along the lines of what a teenage girl would read online about co-dependent relationships instead of following in the example of her parents. I’m glad that Akasaka had the courage to write Akane this way even if will be bad for Aqua’s mental health as he’s showing just what can go wrong as people struggle to grow into adults. She’s relentlessly trying to do what she believes is best for Aqua even if some of her beliefs are misguided, and she’s a well-written and flawed character, not a perfect waifu as some people claim her to be.

This will most likely put Aqua back on the path to revenge against Hikaru, and then they’ll go about it as a couple with Akane supporting him with all her heart. Unfortunately, I believe the direction Episodes 28 and 29 went in point to Oshi no Ko ending in a dark and bleak fashion. And while I can see why fans would be very upset with such an ending, if the first arc with Ai was a criticism of the industry and the last few arcs build up to a dreary ending, I can see Oshi no Ko being a story about the very significant mental health crisis in Japan and how underneath the entertaining aspects of the Japanese entertainment industry lies a message of a country deep in crisis with many of the people who engage with this industry, either directly as a part of it or as fans of it, having major issues.

Watching anime for perfect waifu is in my opinion not the ideal way to watch it. You may get solace from feeling close to such a character when watching anime primarily as an escape, but it will not motivate you to improve your life and meaningfully grow as a person or to diversify your perspectives on life and relationships. I hope anime-onlies such as myself can watch the entire series and not pre-judge the ending as terrible, instead focusing on what message Akasaka was trying to tell. There are big deep-seated issues in Japan that often show up in developed countries later, much like a rapidly aging population, a shrinking workforce, and reduced social interaction/withdrawal. The significant mental health crisis is probably a sleeper issue that will creep up on many countries.

Analysis: Oshi no Ko’s portrayal of how the pursuit of revenge hurts those around you is brilliant and the possible implications of that for the story

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For me personally, the ugly and unpleasant can make for great content even if not the most enjoyable, and I found this to be outright one of the best episodes of Oshi no Ko after the appalling episode from last week. This episode shows very well how the death of a character can ruin the dynamics between a family due to the ensuing trauma and how one’s pursuit of revenge can negatively affect those around you.

Ichigo basically abandoned his wife and Strawberry Productions due to being heartbroken over Ai’s murder, and given he considered Ai his daughter of sorts, he probably blamed himself on some level for not preparing Ai for something like that given his knowledge of the industry. Now, he’s using Ruby as a foot soldier for his revenge even though it keeps her on a bad path, the daughter of the one he considered a daughter to him. Ichigo was fucked up by Ai’s murder just as much as anybody else, and seeing his nonchalant telling to Aqua that it was just a theory and nothing confirmed after Aqua started having a panic attack while he continues fishing, doing nothing meaningful to calm Aqua, the son of the one he considered his daughter, shows just how much he has changed with him not caring about his wife, Miyako, and showing zero care for the well-being of Ai’s children.

Aqua’s pursuit of revenge himself was what kickstarted Ruby going off the deep end since she realized that the reason Aqua had gotten back into the industry despite for years saying he had no further interest in acting was so that he could find Ai’s murderer after her realization that Gorou had also been murdered just as Ai was and that it was orchestrated by the same person. Viewers should recall that Gorou was the person most important to Sarina before she reincarnated as Ruby as he spent the most meaningful time with her with her parents not even bothering to visit her, so Aqua being on the path of revenge directly led to Ruby going on this path, and she doesn’t care who she has to hurt to get her revenge whereas Aqua had more apparent limits to the lengths he would go. I can even understand why Ruby reacted the way she has given she lost both Ai and Gorou, but Gorou’s death was truly painful for her given she had wondered for so long what had happened to him with Gorou being the biggest thing tying her to this world.

In turn this came back to hurt Aqua himself seeing Ruby become the way she is after he did so much to protect her innocence and how Ruby’s pursuit of revenge led to him encountering Ichigo again, which shattered his illusion about him no longer having to kill his father, who was revealed to be Hikaru in Episode 28. And of course, Aqua had a one-track mind for revenge since he was 4 until recently after Taiki wrongly concluded that their father had already killed himself.

As for Kana, I’m somewhat miffed that she’s getting major flack for not being in-tune with Aqua’s emotional state when he was unresponsive to her due to him spiraling. I’m tired of so many people only watching anime so that they can self-insert into the protagonist’s shoes due to watching anime mainly as an escape. Despite Aqua having a ton of trauma, Kana herself has major trauma from her mother abandoning her when her career stalled, making her develop an inferiority complex and an intense fear of abandonment, making her deeply crave validation even though she goes out of her way not to stand out due to realizing that raw talent is less important than people skills in the industry, which is being triggered by Aqua’s treatment of her, so I believe it’s ridiculous that people are bashing Kana despite Aqua deliberately avoiding her for months and then physically hitting her upon their first meeting in a long while. Kana, with her own trauma, of course reacted in the way she did since the way Aqua is outwardly presenting himself as not wanting anything to do with her, and flaming Kana ’cause she isn’t perfectly in-tune with Aqua’s emotions like Akane is is a failure in media literacy as Kana being a self-absorbed girl is not the takeaway Akasaka wanted viewers to have from that scene. Kana does not and has never known about Aqua’s issues, and she cannot read minds. Not everyone is into psychologically profiling people like Akane is as that’s actually quite rare. The main takeaway Akasaka wanted viewers to get from this is Aqua’s spiraling and how the pursuit of revenge is not a healthy way to live since it pushes people away, much like how he never really got all the close to Ruby since he was 4 all the way up until now, which is probably one reason Ruby even decided to go on the path of revenge ’cause she never developed a relationship with anybody as meaningful as the one she had with Gorou.

As far as the implications for Oshi no Ko’s story, after I had watched Season 2, I thought that Oshi no Ko would have a happy ending, but I believe Episode 28 dramatically increased the chances of the story having a dark ending with the reason I believe this being ’cause Ichigo didn’t also need to be looped into the revenge story, and since he was, what Akasaka may be going for is showing how people get fucked over by something such as Ai’s death, first shown through Aqua, and then Ruby, and now Ichigo too. Another reason I believe this is that I think if Aqua hadn’t lashed out at Kana, she of all people might’ve been able to calm him down since she is the one he fancies, but maybe Akasaka’s deliberately keeping Kana out of the revenge plot to ensure that Aqua completes his revenge against his Hikaru after all with the only one who could talk him out of it never being looped into things. Akasaka was perhaps friends with an idol who was murdered and knew somewhat of the fallout of that girl’s murder and wants to preach about how a life in pursuit of revenge ends up ruining many people’s lives. This would make sense for a mangaka since Japan has a significant mental health crisis, and someone actively working in the industry like Aka does would be in a position to highlight how this is perhaps magnified for fans of and those working in the in the Japanese entertainment industry with how many fans latch onto idols due to something they lack in their own lives and considering the pressures those working in that industry face. In any case, it was an outstanding episode despite the ugliness of what it depicted. I don’t know Oshi no Ko’s ending, but I know western anime fans hated it, and this could possibly be a case of media illiteracy or a lack of understanding on a serious issue in Japanese culture.

A trauma-informed analysis on why Aqua likes Kana in Oshi no Ko and Aqua’s true feelings about him acting

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For those for whom it wasn’t clear that Aqua likes Kana, Akane, who Akasaka uses as the voice of reason in Oshi no Ko, pretty much outright stated in Episode 26 that that is the case. This is not to say that Akane has no chance in the end, but I’m just sharing why it very much makes sense that Aqua currently likes Kana.

Aqua slowly growing to like Kana was built up on early in the series and was literally intentional. Yes, Aqua did state that he wanted to kill Kana back when they were small kids ’cause of how insufferable she was, but fixating on that one line to try to suggest that he doesn’t like Kana was blatantly disregarding what the story was actually telling.

Just note how Gotanda took note of the difference between Aqua’s reactions to Kana and Akane wanting to see his childhood acting. Although Gotanda didn’t draw any conclusions from what he observed, one reason for the contrast in Aqua’s reactions was to show that as much as Aqua likes to put out that he doesn’t enjoy acting or want to be in the industry, he was still self-conscious enough to not want Kana to see his childhood acting. If he truly didn’t give care even an iota about acting, he also wouldn’t have cared if Kana had seen it or perhaps reluctantly allowed her to see it eventually if he didn’t have any expectations of his abilities. Yes, I know he was a long-time fan of Kana at that point, which contributed to his decision to not allow her to see it, but he wouldn’t have denied Kana seeing his childhood acting so pointedly if he didn’t care at all.

Thus, I believe whether it’s due to being born as Ai’s son or ’cause Ai literally said that she wanted Aqua to be an actor, Aqua does genuinely have some level of desire to be in the Japanese entertainment industry beyond wanting to use the industry as a means of getting revenge on his father.

As much as Aqua talked about his lack of intention to continue in the industry given how he failed Gotanda, who gave him multiple opportunities repeatedly, I believe Kana sharing how she was encouraged that Aqua was also struggling along with her in a world shrouded in darkness and how she personally likes his acting as it feels like that of someone who’s put in the work for a long time with him using techniques that are considerate and meticulous validated Aqua wanting to be an actor, whether subconsciously or consciously, at the direction of his mother, Ai. Although some people may dismiss that scene as only about Kana feeling kinship with Aqua, I believe her words did resonate with him on some level as Ai was a huge influence on him back when she was still alive and even after, meaning deep-down he hoped to hear someone affirm that he had acting chops, and since he followed Kana’s career from childhood, her words meant a lot to him even if part of the reason she said what she did was ’cause of what she learned from childhood that people skills are in a way more important than raw talent in the industry.

As someone who has experienced trauma, I know for a fact that a substantial number of people are drawn to people who activate their trauma, not ’cause of a desire to hurt themselves but due to a subconscious attempt to resolve past traumas, which is what leads them to seek a familiar situation, and I know this because I myself like someone who activates my trauma, so I speak from experience. In asking Kana to join his sister’s idol group, he inadvertently created a situation that reactivated his trauma once Akane put it into his mind what could happen to Kana, and whether it be to due to his subconscious influencing him to seek a familiar situation in making that request of Kana or ’cause he saw how accommodating of a person Kana was for the Sweet Today project, which made Kana the perfect person for him to rely on to take care of his sister, Ruby, the situation that eventually ensued with Aqua avoiding Kana in fear of her being killed was a very natural progression of events for people who understand how trauma can affect a person.

And furthermore, another reason Kana is an easy person for Aqua to fall for is she had something more going for her than someone like Akane in that Aqua spent time with Kana in early childhood, and Kana is thus somewhat of a reminder of what things were like back before Ai was murdered and when Ai had wanted him to pursue acting. Hell, Kana herself having expectations of his acting is like a continuation of Ai having expectations him, which increases the sense of familiarity of the situation. Even though his life was thrown upside down after Ai was murdered, he did have a loving mother who genuinely wished the best for him, and that film he was in with Kana was Aqua’s shining moment in the industry for a long time. Kana may have been intolerable as a young child, but she actually has people skills now to iron out her worst qualities, and Aqua still likes the dynamic he has with her casually roasting him due to that past meeting. As much as Akane supports Aqua emotionally and how she’s the one Aqua has shared his issues with, and how she’s the one who improved his acting, he still likes Kana at the moment and that development is rooted in real-world experiences with trauma survivors often being drawn to certain familiar situations.